When you thought you had bounced back, thought you were heading in a new direction, getting increasingly excited about what the future holds with each passing day; then all of a sudden you're in tears and hopeless...all. over. again.
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Happy 2018. New year, new beginnings right? In my case: sort of.
Not much has changed in the last few weeks. I'm still playing the waiting game with these grad school applications; however, I'm also waiting on responses from several companies for potential job opportunities as well. Ya know, just in case I don't get into PT school this go-round either. Unfortunately, now that I've completed applications, I still feel lost because until I hear a reply from any of these opportunities, I'm left twiddling my thumbs, wishing I could do more in the meantime. Having your future in the hands of recruiters and admissions committees is enough to make your stomach flip for months, worrying if you're good enough. I'm slacking in other aspects of my life, I'll admit it. I haven't been to the gym this year, my eating habits are crap, money is flying out of my bank account faster than I can pick up hours at work, and I know I can do better...*slaps wrists* Clearly this blog has not been my priority, at all. But to vent about my life, here's an update. Remember how this time last year I had applied to PT school and was awaiting to hear the unfortunate news that I was not accepted to any of the programs I'd applied to? Here we are again, y'all. It's mid-December and I applied to seven programs this cycle and I've already been denied at two of them. I'm trying, really trying to keep my head up and stay positive, but I was brought to the realization that I didn't have a back up plan. I spent 3 and a half years in college running toward my dream job, and a year post-grad trying to better myself to wake up and be asked, "what are you going to do if you don't get in?" and not have an answer. Yes, I have things I like to dabble in: makeup, knitting, cooking, fitness, writing; but none of them ever jumped out at becoming a career for me. Would I be content with any of those options as a source of income? Yes. Had I taken any of them seriously enough to pay my bills. *giggles* "You've got to be kidding me, right?" Some people DO make a living (and a quite sizable one) through these avenues, but I've never dreamed that would be me. Let me remind you, I DO have full-time and part-time jobs, both of which I like, but neither I would like to make my career. I work overtime and do not make enough money to live on my own, which does not work for me considering I have almost no personal bills. But thanks to this B.S. I'm not using at the moment, I sure have racked up some debt. On a more uplifting note. I still have five schools that have my application floating around the offices of their admissions committees. I still have a chance. Even if I don't get my accepted this cycle, I will figure something out. I'll pick up the pieces, learn, and move on to another chapter of life. The month of April has just been so good to me I had to post twice.
When I say the past two weeks everything has gone in my favor. I AM NOT LYING. Last week was super stressful. I had two tests, two presentations, two job interviews, and my car broke down...TWICE all on top of my regular work and school schedule. BUT GOD! I finished the week with a new car and a job offer. Side note: Yes, I was still going to the gym too. Ok, so I missed a month...I know. I'm been super busy with both classes and working 5 days a week. I haven't had a complete day off since the beginning of March when I had my spring break, BUT I have been super productive (aside from maintaining my blog). That being said, I should be working on homework and a group project due in two days, but shhhh.
Updates. Updates. Updates. I'm applying for new jobs. My uncle is a doctor and got me a connect in the rehab department at his hospital so I'm applying like crazy for jobs while my name is floating around. I'm THRIVING in my classes (let's keep the momentum going), and I've been busting my ass in the gym. I've been at Planet Fitness 5-6 days a week religiously in the past two weeks. Friends have been holding me accountable via my attendance Snapchat stories and the friends that I actually workout with. I even rewarded myself with a new pair of Beats earbuds that I'm obsessed with. Side note: I really wanted the wireless Beats Solo3 Wireless headphones in rose gold (to match my phone), but I couldn't rationalize dropping $250 on headphones right now. On the total opposite end of the productivity spectrum, I've taught myself to knit and I'm less than one ball of yarn away from completing my first blanket! Thanks YouTube! I'll make sure to post a picture of it when it's done. I've also decided that reading is important and I KNOW I don't read enough (at all aside from school and social media) so I cracked open one of the get-your-life-together type of books I bought back in January and almost finished half of it in 3 hours. To force myself to read more I also signed up for a 12-month subscription to Book of the Month. Which is a subscription service where you can choose one of 5 books per month (additional books are $9.99 each) and ship it to your door! Here's the link to their website and my referral code: https://www.mybotm.com/pdrwgc57t3boi529 Back to my fitness goals though. I was thinking about starting a new Instagram account for fitness tips, progress pictures, motivation, and overall wellness-related posts. I've started to see slight progress since I've dedicated a chunk of my week to workouts and eating better. I feel great, I still need to work on my sleeping habits and actually planning out (or at least recording) my workouts, but I believe it will come soon enough. Until next time. We're a month and a half of the way through 2017 already and I've been doing some self-evaluation. I got some news a week ago: I didn't get into PT school for this upcoming cycles. Dreams crushed right? WRONG. I'm actually like 75% relieved and here's why.
Clearly 2016 was not the year for me to be a blogger. But it is now 2017 and things have changed. It's a time of new beginnings, and I don't mean that "new year, new me" crap. Literally, life is changing for me. Since my last post waaaaayy back in September, I've graduated college, applied to physical therapy schools, moved back home, starting taking classes at the local community college (yes, already... they're pre-reqs for PT school), and started working again. I went through a lot my last semester at Mason; let's call it my "quarter-life crisis".
I'm back!
I didn't forget about you guys, I promise! I haven't written any since I've been back to school, so I have a lot to update on. First of all: I failed Rule #1. I said I was going post at least once a week...it's been over a month since my last post, I know. I've just been swamped, so I'll do this in list form. !Last Friday I had my wisdom tooth surgery. No, there aren't any videos of me singing/crying/drooling during the car ride home. I actually wasn't as miserable as I expected and I only took my pain meds for two days. Since I've recovered, I feel like I've been so disconnected (my parents don't have WiFi), so I'm catching up on PT applications, internship stuff, and going back to my good ole waitressing job. I have one more week before I head back to Mason and I have so much to do in that time.
So many things are going on this coming up week/month and I have a lot of preparation to do for my final semester of school. I'm trying not to overwhelm myself, but the majority of my summer I have been swamped between my summer classes, internships, and working; I really just want to relax, but an ambitious soul can never lay around for too long.
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Taylor Anderson
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